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Definition of love.

2009-02-16T12:14:00.001-08:00

Ever since my girlfriend and I told each other that we love each other people have been telling us to define love. But how do you define an emotion? Surely the only people that would ask us to define it are those that don’t already know.
If you know what love is then you already know when somebody else is in love too.
But you know me I love a challenge, I’m going to define love.
From a scientific point of view love is a dramatic, massive chemical reaction in the brain that permanently alters how the brain itself works. So love changes you forever, you become hardwired to forever care for this one person.
“One and only true love lasts forever” would be appropriate.
Everything you do becomes for them, to provide for them, to care for them, to have the love returned.
This person your are in love with becomes your driving force, they become your reason. You loose your sex drive for anybody except this one person. You don’t find anybody attractive except your love, and the one you love becomes super attractive.
Your entire universe becomes about this one person, all of your plans, all of your dreams, every desire includes or revolves around this one person.
An emotional view is all of the above (minus the brain talk) plus how the person makes you feel. Well poets since the beginning of literature and probably before have been describing how there love makes them feel.
There are library’s full of romantic literature, but the most common emotions and thoughts are how the person makes you feel, how you couldn’t live without them, how you were nothing before them and would be nothing without them, how they are always on your mind and how every second you spend wishing they were in your arms.
Love is powerful enough to make people risk there lives for others health and happiness. Strong enough to withstand any obstacle, any defiance or difficulty. Soft enough to make you appreciate life, beauty and the world around you. Wild enough to reawaken emotions you may have forgotten or never experienced.
A single person in love could and probably would spend there life describing love and telling there lover how much they love them.
This is all from experience.
When I tell Karmen I love her I mean it. I mean all of the above.
She is my one and only true lasting love. I will always love her. I could never love or even look at anybody else.
All of my plans include or revolve around Karmen. All of my dreams are about Karmen.
She are always on my mind and I am always wishing she were in my arms. Karmen make me feel more wonderful and alive then I ever thought possible.
Karmen, I live for you, I work for you, everything I am and do is for you.
All of the above is for you, all of this (and more) was written for and about you. Because when I met you I fell deeply and utterly in love.
I experienced all this (and more) as I changed and fell deeper and deeper in love with you.
This feeling is so much more then I could ever describe through words and it is still growing.
I will spend my life making you feel the way you make me feel.
I will spend my life devoted to you in everyway.

I am totally, utterly, completely in love with you, for ever.

I love you.

Graphic Tablet & Wireless pen.

2009-02-06T17:49:00.001-08:00

Woohoo! I just got myself a digi-pen!
I’ve been in the market for a graphic tablet for over a year now but never seemed to get round to actually buying one.
I had my eye on one for £50 but incredibly I literally bumped into an equal for a mere £20!!
Of course I bought it… in fact I ran to the till and got it home as fast as possible. Guess where I bought it.

>Clue:

That’s right! Netto!
This credit crunch is starting to pay off, ironic.

The level of control is amazing, I’ve never experienced it. This model comes with 29 HotCells (touch buttons built onto the pad itself), all re-programmable to open files or run a program, which makes life ALOT easier.

I’m starting to use it for everything, instead of a mouse!! I even use it for writing short text rather then using the keyboard!
I experimented with it on the programs it was designed for, Photoshop and Flash, as you can imagine it worked superbly.
I’m so pleased with my find. Its a real “Bobby Dazzler”.

Tonight an interesting thought struck me: With this amount of control, what would it be like on a game?

Some of my friends know that I like to play Soldier of Fortune2, an outdated yet excellent online soldier game. The rules are simple, two teams go in to kill each other…and sometimes try to capture the briefcase.

Anyway, usually I would use a mouse to aim and shoot, instead I tried the digi-pen.
OMG!!! The degree of accuracy and speed was god-like! It was difficult at first, I’m still getting used to the pen anyway but once I got to grips with it, shooting was quite enjoyable (more so then usual).
I shall be using it to pwn once I get back a more permanent internet connection (I haven’t been on the online version in over a month).

So you guys can expect to be seeing some more, higher quality Photoshop's and eventually some Flash games and movies.

Most Beautiful Song I’ve ever heard.

2009-02-06T12:42:00.001-08:00

OK, soft moment coming up.
I was trailing through my hard drives music the other night and on the Ministry Of Sound Chilled album I found “Barber’s Adagio for Strings – William Orbit”.
I wasn’t expecting this kind of song as I have never gone through the entire album. I have to say I was pleasantly surprised.
I think I may of heard it elsewhere but it had an amazing effect on me. It immediately put me in a calm and happy mood, something I haven't felt in a while.
A good classical song has always made me sit back and listen, some I will loose myself in. This is one of those songs.
I know that many of you won't agree, I doubt any of my friends will share my view on this either.
However I seriously believe it is the most beautiful song I have ever heard.

>Youtube link to the song.

MSN 2009

2009-02-01T04:04:00.001-08:00

Hey, I know its been a while since my last blog entry but hey I’ve been busy. I’ll update you with everything that’s been going on in another post.
Right now I thought I should blog about the latest version of WLM (Windows Live Messenger). I just finished installing it and it seems great. At first glance it seems a bit… bland, but its not!
The layout is cleaner, simpler and a lot more accessible. The download also comes with other easy to use desktop programs:

Windows Live Family safety.
Allows parental controls over users (pretty useless when your the only user).
Windows Live Mail.
Opens any email account on your desktop rather then your browser, allowing for faster interaction and doesn’t slow down your other connections. It also means your browser won’t become un-responsive every time you check your mail.
Windows Live Movie Maker Beta.
Does what it says on the tin. A basic movie making program, I prefer flash.
Windows Live Photo Gallery.
Does the same job as Adobe Bridge. Opens all your photos. I still prefer the original.
Windows Live Writer.
My favourite, a basic word processor that allows you to create good looking blog entry's. On ANY blog server you may use. I’m using it right now in fact!

The only downsides I’ve found are the colour codes now mean nothing (I assume they will upgrade…or I hope, at least), the scripts I’ve become accustomed to using and relying on are no longer there.
But with better graphics, softer tones, easier layout, a much simpler interactivity AND great software; Its a great download.

I just hope they come through with the upgrades!

Photoshop and first piks

2009-01-11T09:19:00.000-08:00

I recently aquired photoshop and I'v just been messing around with the basic effects like smudge and adding text.

Here are a few that I'v edited, I dont think they are very good but they are worth a mention.

This picture has a personal mesage from me to me that I don't think anybody is going to understand unless I explane it to them. I'm not trying to seem big headed its just one of those mesages nobody gets lol. Pop-up!

Another abstract personal message here, this one showing the good and evil side of one charictor and how you have the power to decide which you are. Pop-up!

This pik I edited for my girlfriend, we had been talking about kissing in the rain and her poetry so I thought this would be a nice touch to the convo.
A friend had sent me the original image the night befor when talking about artwork, I began just messing around with the smudge tool to make it look wet through, then added my own snippit of text. Corney but she liked it ^_^. Pop-up!

First Blog Experience.

2009-01-11T06:06:00.000-08:00

Hello Blogg-readers!

I'v been meaning to start my own blog for a while now and finaly got round to it.
I didn't think I had much to talk about that anyone would be interested in reading.
Then I thought, so what? If they don't want to read it, they don't have to, at least I get to right it out somewhere.
So thats what I'm doing, spiling my heart, mind and guts out all over my keyboard to share with you lucky readers.

If you decide to check back and read what I have to say then be warned now; Most of my blogs will sound like random crap, some will me whining about some stuff hapening in my life (isnt that what most teenagers do with there blogs?) and then there are some you will think are insane (when I start talking about telekinesis, science, my theorys and other strange stuff).

I hope you enjoy reading my heart, brain and guts as much as I have enjoyed writing about them.

Enjoy!